~ IN THE HANDS OF GRACE~

I yearn to cry in this instant

Only to relieve my soul

From years & years of holding back

Afraid of tears

 

I want to cry

Naked today

Only to cleanse all of my skin

The piercing wound I’ve inflicted on myself this time

In the place where I took my first breath

 

I want to shed a peaceful tear

On a terrace of hopes & dreams

At the sight of luminous mountains

Without regret

Without censor

I want to Be

 

I want to ponder on the Truth

To say I’ve loved so faithfully

Beautifully

Without self glance
and lift it all in prayer
to God’s very hands

For blessing in His own way

 

I want to pray &  shed a tear

A word that says “I AM”

An unspoken voice that runs from ties

And a heart surviving

In magical Grace

For as many days as Heaven wishes…

That I Be. 

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©Anaid K.C.

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~Renewal~

~I cried one last tear
before I hit the ground
I pleaded for years 
but it wasn’t around
neglecting my fears
I now stand up and shout…
“This is me…and I count”
 
~I waited a year
giving all which I vowed 
I played on death’s ears
and survived it somehow
a hummingbird on my window
sang out loud …
“Won’t you smile, won’t you smile?”
 
~I sang to that song
though it had been a while
sweet melody embracing my aches
with pure smiles
a choir of angels appeared from all sides
Saying …
“from now on your illness subsides”
 
~I swam like a mermaid
in this ocean so true
I believe it is real
with my eyes closed I do
I sing to the world 
now it has come my turn
“I will live
&
I will dance too!”
 
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©Anaid K.C.
 

~My Fortune in a Prayer of Gratitude~

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I may not have it all down here at this place

where hearts are broken

spirits darken

dreams shatter

more often than not.

But when I go Home,

once it is all said and done,

I can lift my chin with humble pride

and say…

“Lord, I have cried, 
and I have not been a perfect being
but truly my heart was at the right place
attempting at each moment to put You first, 
as not to attack or damage myself,
or any others (Your children).
Yet, 
I failed time & time again,
I cried
I hurt deeply.
This world, 
our Earth,
it revolves on other things, 
ones I rebelled to focus on. 
It has been isolating being the “odd one”
often being “out” for being good. 
 
Still, no regrets.
 
I will smile
when I meet YOU and angels.
Thank You for not letting me forget . . .
You are always by my side
You carry me when I cry . . .
You’ll be there when I die . . . 
Until Eternity.”  
 
 

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~It Is The Way We Are~

I am not the kind of girl with a stubborn heart

I am not the kind of girl who has to wonder

I am the kind that slows down to the rhythm of nature

As gently as to hear what it whispers clearly

And it says my heart is wise

And it says my heart knows

And it says my heart only sickens when all is out of order

All which has a natural way

Only when man controls THE WAY

Only then is health and purity threatened

Only then does toxicity aim against Earth itself

And it says it is then we ALL die

It is how we as a world scarce

It is then how as a nation we fail

It is every man and every woman lying about their heart

Pretending and detouring

Controlling THE WAY & THE TRUTH

DENYING that which IS

It is every child we suppress of beauty

It is every animal we reject

IT IS US

Not living in the flow

Not remembering our essence

Dishonoring LIFE

The WAY & the TRUTH

AND OURSELVES

It is my Heart

It is yours

And their disunion

You & I

And not the things of the world.

 ©Anaid K.C.

 

~God’s Beloved~

 
 How to even begin to mourn your absence?
How when it would be
As erroneous as
Mourning spilled milk a midst a storm
A cup that has overflowed
And a face of tears disguised in rain
 
How to even begin to count ONE loss?
When outside the doors are wide and reappearing
How?
When I’ve come across a golden gate
A heart full of wander
And a Soul blessed in His name
 
I AM God’s beloved spoiled one
Too thankful to cry
Much too in love with LIFE
To even know what lonely is
Too suppressed by struggle
To have the time to look for a fifth leg
Much too grateful
Much too awestruck
Much living a MIRACLE
 
I AM God’s beloved
Spoiled one
And all I have done
Was pray in the rain.    
 
~*~

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~ If Forever Only Lasts Till Yesterday ~

I cannot think of a better way to have spent my last years

If that is to be the case

I’d never felt as free … as alive

Being held strongly there in your arms

gently enough to dance with you

A multitude of fond memories I have accumulated with you

Even though at times I thought

if we were broken… “How could we be apart forever?”

We could not!

I…

with the assumption that “forever” was a long time

Now…

I am seeing the world through different eyes

In my heart I am still me…

-the naive one-

who just once more believes whole heartedly in a miracle

One that will vanish away any illness present

as if it’d never been there at all.

And if…God’s will differs from mine

I will bow in total resignation & acceptance

somehow blessed I would honor my fate

for it is in my Lord’s hands.

 ©Anaid K.C.

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~My Number One Star~

What else could there ever be…  My number One

Not all the water of the ocean could ever survive

Not without our Love’s birth

Not without our walks on the shore

Not without your kiss by the moon over the sea

Not without the way we’d greet the dawn & the Light

Not without you & me

Dolphins swam on the horizon

Of a new day for you & I

As one more kiss of a million we would daily be

As the whole Universe in an order just too intertwined

Became for us to see

What else could there ever be?

Or ever has been… My number One

Not all the ocean

Not the seven seas

Could say you were not my star…

My number One

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©Anaid K.C.