You came & Went Too Swiftly 

Fluttering from Love

for the tiniest time

leaving a gigantic void 

as if I had met you 

I loved you so  

you were only an idea

We desired so completely 

We waited on for years

Ever since

I loved you so deeply 

Clearly seeing you in my dreams

not truly knowing you

as if I had

From somewhere 

Somehow

As if I’d known you 

Loved you before

As if welcoming you back

Expecting you

To love you once more

Again 

Ever more …

But you came & went 

Too swiftly 

Breaking my heart 

As my body bled

My soul ached

My world trembled

and only I seemed to notice 

To have notice you 

To have loved you most 

To struggle to breathe

Through my tears 

Only I  

Seemed to have felt you lived

You came and went 

Too swiftly … 

It’s only been 1 year & 7 months

Now slowly 

Too slowly

I get on with things 

I find my breath again 

As slowly 

As my body recovers 

As my world wind settles 

I breathe 

And somehow 

In a miracle 

I carry on.  

~16072017

~Renewal~

~I cried one last tear
before I hit the ground
I pleaded for years 
but it wasn’t around
neglecting my fears
I now stand up and shout…
“This is me…and I count”
 
~I waited a year
giving all which I vowed 
I played on death’s ears
and survived it somehow
a hummingbird on my window
sang out loud …
“Won’t you smile, won’t you smile?”
 
~I sang to that song
though it had been a while
sweet melody embracing my aches
with pure smiles
a choir of angels appeared from all sides
Saying …
“from now on your illness subsides”
 
~I swam like a mermaid
in this ocean so true
I believe it is real
with my eyes closed I do
I sing to the world 
now it has come my turn
“I will live
&
I will dance too!”
 
Org. 27092009/Delray Beach, FL
©Anaid K.C.
 

~My Fortune in a Prayer of Gratitude~

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I may not have it all down here at this place

where hearts are broken

spirits darken

dreams shatter

more often than not.

But when I go Home,

once it is all said and done,

I can lift my chin with humble pride

and say…

“Lord, I have cried, 
and I have not been a perfect being
but truly my heart was at the right place
attempting at each moment to put You first, 
as not to attack or damage myself,
or any others (Your children).
Yet, 
I failed time & time again,
I cried
I hurt deeply.
This world, 
our Earth,
it revolves on other things, 
ones I rebelled to focus on. 
It has been isolating being the “odd one”
often being “out” for being good. 
 
Still, no regrets.
 
I will smile
when I meet YOU and angels.
Thank You for not letting me forget . . .
You are always by my side
You carry me when I cry . . .
You’ll be there when I die . . . 
Until Eternity.”  
 
 

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~God’s Beloved~

 
 How to even begin to mourn your absence?
How when it would be
As erroneous as
Mourning spilled milk a midst a storm
A cup that has overflowed
And a face of tears disguised in rain
 
How to even begin to count ONE loss?
When outside the doors are wide and reappearing
How?
When I’ve come across a golden gate
A heart full of wander
And a Soul blessed in His name
 
I AM God’s beloved spoiled one
Too thankful to cry
Much too in love with LIFE
To even know what lonely is
Too suppressed by struggle
To have the time to look for a fifth leg
Much too grateful
Much too awestruck
Much living a MIRACLE
 
I AM God’s beloved
Spoiled one
And all I have done
Was pray in the rain.    
 
~*~

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