~Sooner or later
one comes to a place…
in which one as an individual…
or as a woman,
that one must go on.
that which does not fit
letting go of all
which makes one’s stomach ill,
farther than one’s birth place,
one’s imagination could have thought.
Because the Heart is lead by Spirit
and in letting God…
one must let go and BE.
Be whole without decay
Be full without struggle
Be open without concern
No worries to make the heart so toxic
it marks your face for all time,
no strains to make your hair frail off and gray,
in the Peace of Silence and Being.
Sooner rather than later
the day comes
when you have to choose
the child you have brought into the Earth
the pet you adopted FOR LIFE
and last but not least
or one night
far far from then
you will have KNOWN
that in no other way
could you have BEEN.
That all which you salvaged
has saved YOU…
your very LIFE!!
That day you will certify…
the KNOWING that is THE HEART
for ALL time.
sooner rather than later
you will have TRUSTED YOURSELF.
sooner rather than later
you will have learned that…
LOVE is where YOUR heart is WELL.
Tears join me
for a new dance
the joyful one
the one which envelops me
with Peace I’ve never known
I sing & I dance
not knowing “how”
the melody of Truth
has found me homeless
It has sheltered me
with Love I’ve never known
I fall back on a cloud
that evaporates all yesterdays
I open my eyes
to step forward somehow
unknowing I feel at ease
with the Stillness & the Silence
I have always known
Could I BE HOME?
When I was growing up…
I THOUGHT that PEACE meant not rocking the boat …
I THOUGHT that SUCCESS meant staying grounded …
I THOUGHT that LOVE meant to sacrifice the self …
I KNOW that I choose my surroundings
I KNOW that richness is in change
I KNOW that home is where the heart is
I FEEL harmony in my space
I FEEL abundant in my ways
I FEEL I AM LOVE
I am as whole as ONE.
The human experience
as an empath woman
The human experience
as a creator woman
The human experience
as a woman alone
If only you will let it.
There is something inside me
That won’t let me cease the way ahead
To a world so exciting
That will carry me to a brighter day
Though the voices of darkness
Cloud my space with their webs
I won’t fade in their cloudy stormy ways
For the gray gloomy words they speak my way
Fall right pass me as rain that clears its self away
So no evil can harm me
It’s bounced quickly back to where it came
And my heart keeps on dancing
Through the storms I am well
My soul dwells in this bright beam
Of the 7th violet healing rain
That remains ever-present
In my dreams or when I wake
It’s the color inside me
That comes through my voice when I speak
And the calmness about me that others so seek
It’s what soothes those around me
Why babies sleep in my embrace
It’s the warm gentle touch that caresses each day
Violet rain that embodies all that’s greater than I
Lets the world meet my goddess
When they look in my eyes
Fairy dust in my veins
That won’t let me astray
Deepest treasure so violet
Lives in me for always.
Riding into a daydream
my horse so wild
it only responds to the sound of my calling
my gentle calling
always for an adventure to come.
Dreaming by day
working by starlight
as I write
I foretell my own fortune
as well as the luck from a few whom I love
I tell of my dreams which hint of our lives
I tell of my instincts
and of my vibes
I am a gypsy.
A trillion of silks envelop my being
a richness of auras embraces my skin
and after all the dancing by the moon tonight
has exhausted my traveling feet
I retire to sleep at the sound of the creek
the creek from which I drink
as the sunlight comes to greet.
I win all my battles
the ones I choose to beat
as I defeat my demons
and the demons on the street
My swords are my own hands
the only palms I cannot read
my eyes could tell stories
which my lips don’t care to speak
I am a wanderer.
I reside under one velvet shawl
I knitted for my fleet
taking nothing from all places
which enrich me while I sleep
I give away my love made treasures
Be they jewels
Be they me
Be they words of wisdom
Be they inspirations to complete
I give my all I have to give
none of it is meant for me and not for keeps
I pass on forward all my knowing
my gold coins
my rose hips
I toss them all up to the Universe
up towards Heaven
in the hands of the Father
I rest my fate
for I know nothing is my own
the Lord is my shepherd
and I His Gypsy.
You know the one that I am now.
You’ve seen me at my worst difficult times,
you saw my “strength” and “warrior” come out
attempt their best at life.
I don’t regret anything but I am changed.
I’m not so fragile and delicately sensitive
that’s a good thing for me.
Nor would I repeat my errors.
I will balance my wills better, and I do.
I will stand on fertile soils and not beat the concrete senseless.
I will make new mistakes and learn new lessons,
but I believe I will do so more carefully
more gently with others and myself.
I know that I hurt twice holding the toxins.
Don’t know how to knock my walls down
because I’m fond of them.
It’s safe to me
even though I’m inside with the poison!!
And it’s making me extravagantly ill!
I guess all in due time.
I need to be gentle
Protect myself through thick and thin like my life depended on it…
and it does!
All the resentments have not disappeared
they were frozen in time
and have taken over my physical body to get my attention.
My “life”, as people knew it,
was placed on “checkmate”
I won that …battle-game.
I built barriers and I still stand behind them.
When one is hurting or clouded it’s another story.
The thing with the school of life is…
just when you think you’re good and clear and got it,
you get quizzed and put in front of those whom you’d rather evade.
That’s when all info goes bananas….
If I could draw a line in the sand and say…
“As of today I start all over,
new people, new world”
then I’d be super great!
But of course it’s true…I can create my world
but I can’t run away and not face my demons.
So I have been pushing away
ignoring them all my life.
It’s what I do.
So I read this quote in a “Conversations With God”…
“Live a life that is nourishing,
taking you someplace,
by changing ANY aspect of your life that you no longer find joyful.” p.202
A new world ahead
new and better ways to be a part,
with the world and nature.
We influence a change in every person we come into contact with
and it is very simply either of love or fear.
You always have to play it by ear,
which means on the last played note,
not the songs of yesterday,
nor anticipating on the yet to be played.
I resent very much people who seemed apparently loving
but were actually never capable of loving because they were afraid of loss.
And I feel, in retrospect, like a pun in their game!
Be well with YOU
that brings out a whole other ball game.
Romantic love is only a small dividend of the whole in a woman’s life.
Give time, dedication,
love, and attention to ALL your houses of Self………..
Don’t give it a yay, nor a nay but just keep focusing.
The more you try to fight off or figure out your shadow,
the more you empower it.
It will entertain you all day
and all night if you let it…..even in your dreams.
But before “it” starts putting ideas on you
about what you may want to do to avoid it…
know that the more you go against it the more it sticks.
It will go to immeasurable lengths to be,
and to have control over you,
because it only want is to survive
women in particular arrive here too late,
or never get pass the point
or at least not until they are much older
and they miss out on living in the Light.
So be grateful to have arrived,
be grateful to be privileged
with the knowledge of the grand challenge.
How long this phase takes you
is all up to you,
but “time” is an illusion,
so more importantly is really getting it,
rather than how long it takes.
We all have a “Light” self,
I will call it that……And we all have a “shadow” self.
YOU and you only.
Lets focus on that
leave the rest for later,
as later it will take care of itself.
Life rearranges itself in relation to our inner status.
We attract, or repel, depending on our inner energy,
so looking within is crucial in any situation
even when it seems exterior.
If you shall fall I’ll catch you.
And if you’re already there I am here.
Right there in the dark
where you are all alone
I have come for you
with the certainty that I can lift you up
Though you’ve taken off your gloves in hopeless defeat,
and though you might believe it’s been a mirrored maze with a dead end.
I would not have come without a key,
and cross my heart there is an exit.
If you’d only trust and take my hand,
there’s nothing else left to lose.
If you’ve ever felt inflicted,
as if you have been long waiting,
and if you’ve asked “why me?”
Let me share with you some answers,
and some truths to set you free.